-Mother Teresa
I finally felt a sense of
relief in my back. The constant pain has
kept me up at night, it limited my scope of moving around, and it hurt to walk
around the block. Nothing seemed to
relive the pain or the way I was feeling.
I was seriously wondering if something was physically wrong with me.
Over the past weeks, months,
and year; I have been inundated with a series of events that have left me
depleted. It seemed that I was always
fighting with the world or felt like world was against me. I was at a point of
my life that I wasn’t ready to forgive anyone, because it was easier to hate
them.
We take it for granted the
toxic nature of hate. It leaves you
self-righteous, self-centered and sometimes a little delusional about what is
right and wrong. Marianne Williamson
stated that not forgiving someone leaves you in a worst position, because it
keeps you locked in the moment of the hurt.
The hurt and the pain becomes a
filter. A filter that clouds our thoughts and emotions, it clouds memories, and
it clouds our ability to be compassionate.
It creates a cloud of reality or perception.
I always tell the story of the
winter in Munich that my husband and spent there while he was working on his
dissertation. Every day we saw people
walking their dogs and didn’t clean up after them. Over the next few months of record snow fall,
everything seemed perfect beautiful snow drifts and happy dogs. Until the spring thaw started to happen. Over a course of a few weeks, the melted snow
made something apparent, a yard covered with dog feces.
We’re human, no one’s perfect. We can’t run and hide from flaws or gaps in
our lives. I’m amazed how you mind and
body looks for ways to heal itself. Sometimes,
it’s easier, just ignore them to the signs, then they will go away but that is
not the case. Eventually everything
catches up to you.
